welp.. I guess the jig is up

 So the shitload of shit behind the shit damn had hit the mega fan in full force and its everywhere. As soon as I get my shit out of that house I will technically be homeless. I dont know what to do with my dog. I have maybe 2 friends who can maybe take him and that right now is my biggest concern because :I have no answer for it. I can easily move all my things into a storage unit and call it a day. Since I will be saving on gas I can now put that towards a storage unit. I was planning on going tomorrow to get most of my shit out anyways but this just makes it worse. They didnt even have the decentcy to let me get my things out of their way. Like how the fuck would you feel if i went and touched your things while you werent home and kicked you out. This all just really sucks. Today has been kinda a shit show. 


On top of all that i was in the middle of doing the intake form so that I can go to this specific therapist and then Oz fell to the ground and his ankle and wrist are fucked up. He was going to help me move tomorrow but that is ok. I just want him to be better. My sister is willing to help me move so thats good i guess. I'll be there at 10 a.m. to double check the room while both of us can be there cause otherwise my anxiety wont let it go. Its kinda like how when i go to a hotel and i open up drawres i didnt use eeto make sure that i didnt accidentally leave something in them. Stupid anxiety. 


I just want this all to be over with and i dont ever want to see them again. They dont care about me or my side of shit so whatever, fuck em. I want to cry and to not cry all at the same tiime. I am sure tomorrow or tomorrow night i will end up crying but right now i just cant afford to fall apart like that. Oz has said i can bring my clothes and shoes over here so that is good but he has never seen my closet so we shall see what he really thinks when all my shit is here. I guess with my boots I will have to put those into a box and just tstore them. I guess the good thing is that atleast everything is pretty much boxed up already, now i just have to move it...


Rolando suggested seeing if i could have my mom helop me buy a place so that me, my things, my dog and my cat can have a place to stay and not have to ever nove again or at least for a long long time.

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