Ok so maybe i was in the middle of a bad moment...

 This morning, since i woke up at 5:00 a.m. for no apparent reason, I went ahead and looked at the mistake i had done last week. I basically had 2 set of payments for the same week but on different calendar. I also ate a bowl of cereal, put sweat pants on and took the dog outside to pee, did said financial planning. 

Later when it was time to wake Oz up, I went to the dentist and told them about the 2 problems I have and that they saw. Then Ischeduled a cleaning, went out to the waiting area and was called up to make 2 appointments. One with a dentist for the implant I need,one for the root canal and crown I need.

That was followed by going to my regular doctor to talk about 4 health issues. I had to go to the morning-side house to water the plants, check on the dog, pick up all the dog poop, and grab some boxes and 2 pieces of furniture. They are still in the car because I didn't want to deal with it, that house makes me sad now. I have to mentally prepare to go there at like 8 a.m. next Tuesday and be there till about 3. Get everything packed, hang out with the dog. Take some things out of the room and leave myself time to put it back in there in an organized fashion. 

The last writing was during that time when we got back to Oz's house and i ended up crying. He comforted me so so well. Ive never had anything like that before. I have had a lot of melt downs with him but he is somehow able to be patient with me and hold me till i can say out loud what is wrong. I have never been this comfortable around a man ever. Being around him naked is wonderful because he loves my body as is and is always teasing me when he bites his sexy lip loookin at me. Then I get shy and turn around or put something on. 


Today wasn't as bad as I might have thought during a bad time. I did many things that were amazing and I had one bad moment.


Random Thought:

I want to wear the  collar right now, to bed, and under a hoodie (/mine or his, who knows) during my therapy session. It's a nice feeling. There's a safety and a security that comes with it for me.

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