mental health bad day

 Today was the first appointment that I have had with a Kaiser mental health person. While she was a nice enough lady and dealt with me as best as posssible i hated the entire experience. She kept asking questions I didnt have the answer to because I was 16 the first time i got mental health. so of course I end uup a crying mess because its so fucking over whelming. i have to do a part 2 on fucking friday because we couldn't get through everything in a hour and a freaking half!! Its not that i dont want to do it, just that I want this part to be over with asap!!


The appointment left me so drained and just numb. I still sort of want to cry about it but there is nothing I can do at the monment about that because I dont feel like cryuing right now and i already cried so much today.

at least i got my knee fixed for now with a cortisone shot and my teeth are clean. Speaking of which it is abouyt time to go and brush them, 

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