Good days

 So often I come here to let all the bad things out and while that is the main purpose of it all there are sometimes when I have good days like today. Met up with a friend and potential metamour for coffee to kind of sus out the situation between her and my bf. I came out of it feeling much better because of the real time she would have to offer him. It wouldn't take a whole lot away from the time we spend together which is somethinbg I think I need to be able to slip into the waters of polyamory. I feel good. I have a potential new partner which is nice and having Rolando back in my life as a sort of helper on this journey that I am on through polyam. Today has been nice because we did get to spend some nice quality time together and we started a new show, the bf and I. I feel good about that and like he listened to me about the quality time thing. 


I wrote down some things for our RADAR meeting monday and I am super hopeful for the future. This si a good feeling and I really hope it lasts a while. Tomorrow I don't have any real plans other than my normal moprning routine of doing my 3 journals and posting them to the discord and then doing some reading in my polyamory toolkit book. Who knows what the day holds.

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