Panda

 I don;t know if today could get more stressful... That is not a challenge universe!!  Election day is here and while all the people who are voting blue I am sure are stressed that we may not win, cause that is a possibility, I am about at the top of where I can handle it. Granted I am trying to stay away from anything political on the facebook and I don't watch the new because well i am not old and i dont need that kind of daily negativity in my life. so much so that I cringe when anthony readfs me the news from online and I have to gingerly remind him to shut the fuck up cause I dont weant to hear about it at all. Unless it is something happy then ok. And that is miy right. But I digress.... Also..... the roomies decided to make a special apperance for no fucking reason as farf as I know to come to the house. This eternally pissed me off because not only of saturdays refusal to wear a mask and her only face covering being a fucking sheild, but also she was photographed recen...

 SO we finally got word on Oct 26th that we are both laid off. While this saddens me to no end there have been a muriad of emotions that come with it. Most of which are just general depression. I knoow I need to put more aplications in but right now I just dont care about anything aT ALL!!! I don't want to eat or drink anythong, I have beendrinking so much for a long time now that either it just isnbt enough, im not drinking it fast wnough or i have had to much food to eat before  I start drinking. It is kinda a bummer cause I still have an unopened discounted box (24?) pack of beer as well as what ever beer is left in the fridge between the heinekin and the guinness. I also have 2 botttles of margarita mix as well as and impulsed bout , FREAKING YEATERDAY!!!, bottle of cocnut rum. Well I guess I sghould have said this first but I have decided to go sober for November. So theres that. I also think it may help my mental health a bit.  I want to start fresh and start eating...