Proposal, Marriage, pregnancy of friends make me depressed

These are al the things I want in life but I can't have them because my boyfriend can't and wont get a fucking job. He has to be so damn picky about everything when it comes finding a job. This is the reason, he claims that he hasnt asked yet. Now that he has told me about our friends and roommates getting engaged it makes me sad and want to cry. THEY HAVENT EVEN KNOWN EACH OTHER A YEAR!! we are going on three and a half years together and he still doesnt have a fucking job! we cant move forward together in life because of him. I blame all of this on him. An of course he had to tell me right before a vacation. I am going to try not to let it ruin my vacation but who knows what will happen. He jus sits there al day long dreaming all these big dreams, but what about making them happen. Yeah ok you can get a job for a month once a year to work at the fucking halloween show at a stupid small amusement park. WOOPEDYDO! and then you dont eeven claim your fucking taxes!! UGH!!! I swear he is trying to ruin my vacation!

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