Jealosuy and sadness
So my roommate and his girlfriend re now engaged. They have known eachother less than a year and they are engaged. Mean while Anthony and I are going on 3 1/2 years and he still can't get a fucking job! He won't go out and walk so he can build up the strength in hid legs to be abkle to work for 4 hours a day. It makes me incedibly sad. I want to be married to him but I am at the point of leaving him if he doesnt find a job by the time our 4 year anniversary comes around. How much more shit can I be put through.
Sure he "has a plan" for asking me to mary him and how he plans to do it but to get there you have to have a job and have money to do these things and quit being a spineless litle bitch. Learn to stand up for yourself. Geez!
So now I have to wait to see if the happy couple will be home while I am and then I have to fake happiness for them. I would rather just avoid them all together because that would be much easier for me, but thats mean to them I suppose.
Anthony is being stubborn and pig headed. He won't even listen to me tell him about what I would like in a ring. Instead he wants to pick it out and my fear is that i will secretly hate it. I told him I like tradition in the sense of haveing the engagement ring with a diamond and a wedding band. I never said that it has to cost 5 million dollars but that's what he assumes. He and I have never loked at rings together. We can't even broach the subject with out it turning into a fight. I am really beginning to doubt wheather or not we are going to get married. He wants to have kids and shit but how the fuck arfe we supposed to do that when he doesn't have any swimmers coming out. He is also not doing anything to better that situation as well.
I hate this right now!
Sure he "has a plan" for asking me to mary him and how he plans to do it but to get there you have to have a job and have money to do these things and quit being a spineless litle bitch. Learn to stand up for yourself. Geez!
So now I have to wait to see if the happy couple will be home while I am and then I have to fake happiness for them. I would rather just avoid them all together because that would be much easier for me, but thats mean to them I suppose.
Anthony is being stubborn and pig headed. He won't even listen to me tell him about what I would like in a ring. Instead he wants to pick it out and my fear is that i will secretly hate it. I told him I like tradition in the sense of haveing the engagement ring with a diamond and a wedding band. I never said that it has to cost 5 million dollars but that's what he assumes. He and I have never loked at rings together. We can't even broach the subject with out it turning into a fight. I am really beginning to doubt wheather or not we are going to get married. He wants to have kids and shit but how the fuck arfe we supposed to do that when he doesn't have any swimmers coming out. He is also not doing anything to better that situation as well.
I hate this right now!
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