Learning to loev myself

 As a person who grew up in the 90's I have a lot of self doubt and a lot of self worth issues. I had just gotten out of an 8 year relationship that was very toxic for probably about the last half of it. I went online and accidentally found a wonderful man who is so encouraging of all things, especially when I wear something sexy for him. This has helped me learn to love myself more. 


Yesterday I sent a photo to a new guy  I am talking to and I didn't realize it at first but when I was looking at how to angel the photo i noticed in the mirror behind me you could see the entire backside of me as I was standing there naked intending to send just a  photo with my nipples covered but having the rest of my boobs exposed. I said fuck it and sent the photo anyways. As I had hoped and though, a little, it was well received. 


There have been days where I go out in just shorts and a bralette as well. Granted it was only to the gas station but it is still a big victory for me considering that at one point I didn't even want to wear a bralette outside the house even if I had a shirt on. 


Now with my therapist I am working on my self esteem issues. She recommended a book and I an reading that. I have just started it so we shall see how this goes but I am really hopeful.

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