Panda

 i didnt want to take a shower but i forced myself to do so because I had a doctors appointment. when I was combing out my hair a lot of it came out because it is so damaged that its just breaking off. This threw me into a wild depression and also because we somehow dont have 25 dollars for dog food. 1anthony is unwilling to do more as far as getting more hours at work and this also make me sad. If he continues the way he is gong them he wont be able to pay his half of the bills and groceries and gass for everything. Things are going to change I just have to figure out a place for me to live.

 I hate it here in this house living with this judgemental btch and her stupid fucking untrained asshole dogs.God forbid she bother to actually yell at them and make them stop or even make them wear a shock collar. NNNNOOOOOO I have to invest my money into an anti-bark devie because this cunt of a stupid ass woman can't be bothered to fucking train her stupid little dogs who fucking charge at me when I come in the house. Fuck those dogs! I am also coming to a realization that I don't want to be in the relationship I am in with my boyfriend. I have taken care of him for many years and frankly he wouldn't be alive today if I hadn't made him go to the hospital for his foot ulcer that turn gang green. All this time I am the one who either m ade him make the phone calls for his fukcing health or have had to make them for me. Even goping as far as to call his insurance and put me on his account as someone who can call in and speak on his behalf because he has no fight in him....