Is it depression, a manic episode, or a regular day???

 This is the ever present question on my life right now. After being laid off due to the paneramic that we are in I have had a lot of time to th ink about my mental health and have had the time to be able to feel my feeling and be introspective about it all. It h as been a wild trip to say the least. There have been plenty of late night and many manic episode that have lead me to a cleaning spree because when I am depressed I don't want to do anything. These past few months  have been interesting to say the least. This week alone hs been a roller coaster of epic proportions. i wen t from being terribly horribly depressed to having a clear day. I don't feel ike this is a manic day today but simply a day where I am able to go out into the world withou feeling anxious about it even though I went to costco on a sunday. I have found that mentaly preparing for such a thing and going in with no cart is a HUGE HUGE help. I knew what I wanted and I went straight to it. In and out easy as pie! 

Things I have done today:

Got up and dressed in real clothes

Got lunch with Anthony

Dropped him off a the bus

Got starbucks

picked up Target run stuff

Went to moms to pick up a suitcase set and see Kell's new cat

Was going to go to Michaels but talked myself out of it because we are supposed to go Tuesday

Went to Costco

Came home and did the following:

-set up the cricut to cut more penis confetti

-put groceries away

-put away dishes in dish washer

-loaded up dirty dishes into dishwasher 

-cut flowers and put them in a vase on the counter

-organized\ cleaned up painting supplies

-organized backpack/purse

-re attached hand sanitizer to the keychain thingy it came off of

-defragmented my computer all while having cut a few pages of penic-fetti

-found (not bought) a notebook I can carry in my bag/ ripped out pages I didn't need

--from those pages I went and made sure the addresses I had in there were in my phone so I can throw them away

-cleared out pages from a spiral notebook tso that it can be put into the office

-put the self laminating sheets back into their sleeve so then can also go back into the office

-set up my keyboard, mouse, and laptop on the dinning room table again

-made myself food once i realized I was hungry (aka my sugars were low)

- finished a cup of water that i FINALLY brought in from the car

- cleared off the red stool

-chraged my wireless mouse

Today has just been a pretty great day. I am admittedly a little worried that a depressive episode might come soon, as they usually do after having good days like this.