I really do not like today

 I am in the crappiest mood. I tried to work on my homework for art class and I can not make the color green i need from the 5 freaking colors I have to work with. It is due tonight by midnight and that is not going to happen. the back of my left leg hurts like i need to stretch it out and I have tried and it doesnt feel better. also my left knee hurts hbut it has been hurting for l;ike 2 weeks now so what the fuck ever to that shit. My back also hurts and being bent over the fucking table to do said hoemwork does not help. I for the life of me can not make myself sit up straight because I naturally bend over, big boobs are a bitch. I really really realy want to re organize the ;living room but my back hurts and I really shouldnt do that. I kinda want to smoke some we4ed and just veg out and as i wrote that I rememebered that Kaseys mopm is in the ER and I told her is she needs anything that se should call me and let me know. 

 

I hate these dinning room chairs. they are not comfortable and I bpought a chair pad for the one I sit in all the time but then it males me hioggher and I think I need to put the blocks back under the table to make it a comfortqable height for me to work on. I want to cry and I dont know why and I also want to just say fuck everything anf get drunk. 

 

I dont know how the fuck to do this shit and I am really fruestratewd becasue there is no way for me to tget help in person and this is the po9int wherer I just give up because things get to hard and I dont know how to proceed. Doing art classes online during a pandemic may npt have been the best idea but here i sit half way through a semester. Here just recreate this van gogh piece but there is going to be no instrusction on how to do anything at all. I dont know where the fuck to start and how to do anything. If you were to give me instructions or a video to follow along them I could do it but I can not just go ahead and do it.I dont fucking know how to do it god damn it and it makes me feel like a giant piece of shit!!! what the fuck is next. I am just going to fail the class. I hate this shit. I just want to learn how to ppaint mountains and landscaapes and shit. I fucking hate this shit!

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