being depressed ab out my depression

 It is a funny thing to find that I want to cry about my poor workmanship during the l;ast half of the semester when I became really depressed and didn't want to do any of the assignments. 


Today as i woke up early to work on my assignments that are the last ones due for this semester and it is FINALLY over ( typing that is a hug indicater) that I am overwhelmed with a sadness and an urge to cry. I know I did this all to myself and at least with the art class I was able to re do the assigments and get a lesser grade. With ceramics though i gave zero fucks. I could not bring myself to watch a fucking video or 2 and post a reply about said video. Reading about what has to be written about the final project also makes me want to cry. The class did not turn out at all how I thought it would be. There were few assignments to make things but they were like 5 pots required to be made from learning each skill and type of pot. 

I really just want this semester to be over with and it almost is. If only there wasnt these last 2 things due that i needed not to get a shitty grade. I think I am going to redo the classes when we are allowed to go on campus and do things again. I feel like the learning would be better for me. 


I guesas i should go do stuff now whike I have the alone morning tine liuke I like.

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