death.....

I havent ad mch experiance with death. Only one really scaring incident when I was 11 with my father. Now  my mothers husband passed 2 days after hi mother passed away. So here we are in Oregan gong to the funeralfor Lois. Taveling with my moother and sister. So far so good but then again we just got here.My brain would not let me sleep. So of course i onlt got 3.5 hours of sleep and then couldnt sleep on the plane cause i didnt bring my neck pillow so i wasnt all akward on the plane and then I gavemom my sweater to lean on to sleep and yeah.Just read the hole time and nowhere we are waiting to go to a pizza dinner thing at someone houes.

I am trying not to let my anxiety get to me but we shall see how things go. ddly enought I hope there is a dog there at this persons house so that way i have something to easily distract myself. I am regretting not bringing my knitting but then again that invites people to come talk to me which is alwas annoying. I wish there was a sign i could wear that says I dont want to talk to people.  And of course anthony is at home so there isnt a nice buffer there for me when people try to talk to me.

I guess its time to go to someones house for a random dinner thing. Hopefully I will be able to sleep tonight.

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