wieght loss and such

so there is this whole weight loss thing ive been going through for well over a year now.  I did great in my first year. I lost 46 pounds i was full of energy and it was great. Then i fell off th wagon and here we are now almost a year after i stopped going to the gym, and i am up 20 pounds. I dont eat r ight and i dont make good decisions for food. I have no energy to speak of and i am exhausted and stressed all the freaking time. Cindy was saying that I am not getting enough calories in the day so that may be comtributing to my lack of energy. I think she may be right,. I need to start holding myself accountable again and weigh myself every friday morning and measure things. I know the beach body website has those things there. I dont know.
maybe they haave an idea of where I should be measureing, and what. I need to eat better and i need to get more healthy foods into me and anthoiny. He is able to help b providing 38 dolars a week this month to the gorcery bill and I will cover the rest. We cant really afford to go out to eat so that is good. I feel like i am weak when it comes to food and cant be around any tempting foods. I have brownies in the cabinet to make and I want them to go to people who helped us move, as a thank you or all the hard work they did. I had about 5 loads worth of the big stuff. aAnthiny didnt have nearly as much asa i do. Its so crazy. There is to much yarn everywhere..... Lots of crafty stuffs. I am going to get it all organized. so we shall see. I am felling pretty low about all this food stuff. This is such a hard thing to change is this habit of mine and the food. I am nhungry and it is time to eat so that is good. There is yardwork rto be done and then i want to go for a walk and see how i do with all that. I think i might do a workout, but we shall see.