LAzy ass Mo fo!

That is what I have been lately.A lazy ass mother fucker! I dont exercise and I am not exactly eating right. I cheat here and there becaue I am lazy. I want to lose more weight and I think abou that as i shove more and more "bad" food into my mouth. I buy a bag of cheeze its at 2nd work Because they are there and cheap and I love them. I have been on this diet for more than a year, and when combined with the exercise part of the plan works great for me. And I know that lately I have been tored becasie A) I have been eating bad for me foods, and B) because i have been working a shit ton of hourse very week. Its the 50 hours a week combination from both jobs that is killing me. Geting home around 10 and staying up till midnight or later sometimes, and then getting up at 630 a.m. and repaeating this duriing the week that kills me. I also know that it is the whle not working out thing that I s killing me. I have to get back to the gym, ok well lets be honest; I dont have to, I really want to. I should have been training for this 5k that is this saturday, meaning in 7 days!!! BBBUUUTTTT I havent doe shit to train for it. I know I could do it out of the blue. I did it once when I wieghted more and had no training whatsoever for diabetic 5k i did years ago.

The big question is what motivated me before? I was so driven and so excited to loose wight and get into shape and all that. I dont know hwat happened. It became wasier and easier to cheat. The holidays of course did not help, but then after that it spiraled out of control.

I need to get my spending in control as well as my eating in control. I was thinking about looking at some of my past menus and seeing what else i used to eat. Then i could have some changes in my diet and maybe that would make things better. I just need to find my will power again. There are so many temtations that i just give into, that it is making this all really diffcult. Like I said, it is the eating of the bad foods that is not helping when it comes to me being so tired.

No better time like the prsent then to do somethong aboput it. I want to go buy this bok (yeah yeah spending control) about creating good habits and such.

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