Mental Issues... Loosing myself
There are time where i wonder if i really am bipolar. it all makes sense and it seems that the basic diagnoses is there.Right now i feel sad and I have been on a fucking roler coaster for a few days now. I wonder sometimes, more recently then not, that maybe some pills would help. but problem number one is that i cant afford the pills and prolem number 2 is i wonder if that will be the real me or not. I want tobe happy but there are times where i wonder if i am happy al the time am i just not dealing with all the sadness in my life and if i am not then is it all going to come spiraling down. i live in a constant fear that when things are going really well and ihave had quite a number of good mood days that eveything is going to go crashing down. but then i also wory that is it just me creating the problem or not. Am i causing my own mysery\?? There are time where i just need to work through my shit and get it out in whatever manner that maybe. Everyone around me is having a wo...