Panda

 I don;t know what to do when I feel left out. I know this is yet another thing that stems from my childhood but I dont klnow how to deal with it and get over it.

 Sometimes you just want to rite that you want to die but that isn't okay to say. Like I am not suiidal or anything but I really don'T WANT TO EXIST RIGHT NOW IN THIS UNHAPPY STATE

 I am feeling eall inseure about my relatuoinshi with oz beause I am an inseccure mes right now. He is trying to date these 22 onderful people whom are so muh better than me at bing poy and I am afraid he is going to get sik of my shit and leave me. i really hate this shit. I m sick of my own shit and sick of feeling this way but I dont know what to do about it. 'i am working on things but it is hard and i just want him to not date anyone and only date me to make it easier on me while I go out and date 5 people all at once. I just want to be selfish and hae him al to myself. He is my human secuity blanket and now others are trying to tke it away from me piece by piece